sometime i just feel that i can't tell you those unhappy stuff with that fella. somehow i feel that in your mind i'm prejudice (well, you can say this is my assumption), if that so,then i think many ppl are prejudice towards that fella.

you always say i'm putting you in a difficult position, so what you want me to do? being a freaking lame hypocrite and tell you i'm fine and put a freaking big smile plus shake hand with that fella? perhaps if possible get a high resolution camera to take down this golden, unforgetable moment? sorry, i can't do it... and i can't fake it..

i know what i'm doing now is not a right way to get it resolve and i know what is the right thing to do. but i just need a listener who just listen to me, and perhaps gimme a smile, if this is not demanding. i think i can feel very much better.