i never text anyone to inform that i'm home safely, it never my habit. until there was a time, we always hang around here and there, you were so insists that i gotta text you when i home. after few times of being reminded, finally i picked up and i make it as a habit. but until some time, i can sense that you are kinda reluctant to receive this kind of 'notification' neither you wanna reply those 'notification', need not mention you wanna inform me that you are home safely.. i feel kinda upset. nevermind, i slowly get rid of this habit. i feel i kinda stupid.

also, there was 'once upon time' we used to go dinner together, may be a week once. there we talked stuff, talking everything under the sun. then, till now, can you tell me when was the last time we both had dinner? may be with group of people, you willing to go for a dinner or something.... well, another change.

most of the message i sent to you, always no reply. may be most of the time when i text you, maxis network will down. or somehow the message went missing. or may be you do not like to text ppl... until i noticed actually you are not. and well, i always the special case. fine....

i just feel that you intented to keep a distance with me, may be i'm sensitive. sometime i wonder, am i the one who you built wall the most. do you do the same to your other best friend? i really have no guts to tell you these, tell you how i feel, my friend

i always thought that we are good friend, but things started to changed and i started to tell myself, may be to you, i'm just another friend. lately i was very down, then you told me that you will always there for me, and you ensure me that i'm a friend that important to you... etc i was like..... 'huh'!!?? you will never know that  the email is the most hurtful email that i ever read. sorry, i really doubt that you care for me, what i can see is  distance. and along  the distance, i found the vestage of those walls that you have built all these while.

one thing i can ensure you, no matter how you treated me. i'll always there for you whenever you need me. i don't need to tell you this, i'm sure you know it. because i'm a very convenience friend... when you found someone else to lean on, you can feel free to walk away. one day when you look back and need a shoulder, you know the stupid me still be there for you.